Back again

So, here I am back again at the computer without any pressing work with deadlines. How odd it feels. After the in-laws left I spent my free time doing the multiple loads of laundry while watching tv and taking breaks in between for a drink or a meal. Life has gone back to normal almost too quickly and no matter how much I loved the celebrations I had with the in-laws and hubby over the weekend, I feel like I cut the celebrations off way too soon.

It feels so odd that I didn't have a bigger celebration at the end of my graduation. Oh sure, I went out with hubby and the in-laws for a celebration but I was missing something. I kept thinking that if I was back in KL I'd be celebrating with my friends with dinners night after night. I just realized that I've kept to myself so much throughout my years at the university that I didn't have any real close friends to celebrate with. The one or two close friends that I have already had other plans in place. Some of them have decided to go traveling what with the winter break. That just shows how close our friendship really is. I've kept away from being too close to anyone coz I've spent most of my time with hubby. It's just been easier coz hubby always has an agenda and it's hard to get others to join us for an outing. Things just take a little bit longer when the number of people increases in an outing. More people equals more minds which equals to more ideas on what one wants to do. Rather than taking the time to agree (or in some cases relent to what others want to do), hubby would rather do what he wants to do. And sometimes he lets me decide what I want to do. We just know each other's needs and habits that we end up being more comfortable just spending time with each other only and maybe visit one or two friends once every two weeks.

So now that I want to celebrate my successes I can't expect anyone else to want to spend time with me since I almost always turn down their invitations to a movie or a dinner outing. Can't blame them really. Can't blame myself either. Most of my friends at the university are single and sometimes being the only couple doesn't help. No one likes a pair of lovebirds who can't help but stick to each other even when there are so many other people around them. Can't help it ok. When a Cambodian husband and wife couple were around, it was fun hanging out with them. Hubby was also happy to spend time with the couple. But now they're back in their home country.

I shouldn't be complaining. I have to start my little project I am doing for my brother's wedding that is coming up. But I just feel sooooooo lazy. Ugh.. bad Leo... bad bad Leo!

Oh alright, I'll go do that now. Better than writing mindless entries into my blog. :p